8 Months...

Well it has been 8 months waiting since we submitted our dossier (and 2 months since last post---sorry!). It has been over a year since we first applied to our agency to adopt and it is coming up on a year since our home study was finalized. So guess what that means.....we have to have our home study updated (they are only good for 1 year). This means we have to update some of our paperwork and have another home visit. It's not overwhelming just frustrating to have to do again. We are getting a little discouraged in the whole process and wait time....okay, maybe a lot discouraged. I'm not the type of person who likes to admit when things are difficult and I like to give the appearance that everything is okay. There is a song by Nichole Nordeman, called "Even Then", that I really love. Its a good reminder that life isn't perfect and I am not perfect but because of Jesus, I don't need to be.

It's a fear that keeps me wide awake

In the middle of the night

When the expectations are too great

And the bar gets raised too high

So I do the best with what I've got

And hope that no one knows

That I strain to see how high I can

Try to stand on these toes

Until I'm measured, but You know better

(Chorus)

So, thank-You, Jesus

Even when You see us just as we are

Fragile and frail and so far

From who we want to be

So, thank-You, Jesus

Even when the pieces are broken and small

Dreams shatter and scatter like the wind

Thank-You, even then

So I put aside the masquerade

And admit that I am not okay

Which may not be the thing to say

But I'm not ashamed to need You more each day

(Chorus)

We raise the standard and try to reach You

But we'll never make it, and we don't need to